||[Jul. 25th, 1977|09:43 pm]
Well, I'm a major fuck up. Don't any of you post here, I wont read it.
So don't read it.
At least your journal knows that some people want you back? And you should have left Potter a note. He'll think that you've been held hostage somewhere, you know.
-- DAMNIT. SIRIUS BLACK, GET THE HELL BACK HERE.
IF I KNEW WHAT YOU WERE BLOODY TALKING ABOUT SOONER -- ! OHMYGOD! SIRIUS!
SIRIUS! COME BACK! NO! *falls on knees*
Sirius, if you commit suicide, who will help me prank? Who will always be there, who will help me argue with my parents? There is too much that is being icky without you....
POTTER, YOU IDIOT. IF BLACK ATTEMPTS BLOODY SUICIDE, THERE'S MORE TO BLOODY THINK ABOUT THAN YOUR ACTS OF IDIOCY.
I wasn't thinking of my acts of idiocy, I was trying to make him write or realize that he is needed, at least I am trying, and not yelling...
Merlin, Potter. How is it that you can stay in control now? He could be dead! If he's dead he wouldn't write! Ohmygod. I want Sirius back. Now.
I'm sorry for yelling. Really. I can't take this. Gah. Maybe I should try to find him. If he's left any trace of himself... Godric. SIRIUS BLACK. GET BACK HERE.
I am not staying in control, I am panicking, he is my best friend, and I don't want him dead!
It's okay about your yelling, your just worried...
... He's not dead. Can't be ...